The Final Post

Wasn't that an intriguing title? "The Final Post" I bet you were like "Ooo, I gotta read this one".... at least that's what I hope you were like.

This isn't the final post. But, I am going to be changing the way I post. This blog has always been a place for me to vent. It's where I have written my deep dark sorrows. I haven't been writing nearly as much lately, because I haven't had many deep dark sorrows to write about. I don't feel as inspired to write about my joys. That may be disappointing for you. This may have been the part of my healing that you were looking forward to most. So if you want to know how I'm doing, I give you permission to ask. Just remember, I still deeply miss Addison. I still love her. Nothing will replace her and her spot in my heart. And when I feel overwhelmed with sorrow, I might write. I might make small updates on the fb page that I started this journey with (Addison River Rusch Updates) but they usually won't be huge blog posts.

Thank you for following me. For holding me up whether you have made yourself known or not. On average, I know (because blogger tells me) that I have approximately 300 followers. Thank you for being one of them.

The event last week was a huge success. About 70 people attended. Many people wished they could be there but could not. For this reason, we video taped the event. I would like to share this video with you, on conditional terms. You have to come to my house to watch it (hold on out of towners, I have an exception). By coming to my house, you will get to experience Addison's spirit by seeing her nursery, looking at her pictures, holding her momentos. And above all, I will get to see your love for her, which I need as her mother. Upon your viewing of The Untold Story of Addison River Rusch, I would like to present you with a memento which you can wear in her honor. I had many of these at the event, but not enough. Please contact me if you are still needing a memento. Also, there was a long line to sign the attendance journal, I would still love to just at least have your name inside, but if you would like to leave a special note, please let me know.

For those who live out of town, I have uploaded the video on youtube. It is an unlisted video which you will need a link from me to get to. Several out of towners have already asked to see the video and I am happy to share it. My only request is that you not share it with any others without my permission. The link could easily be leaked and I would need to remove the video from the internet because it is not my wish to share such a personal story with the entire world (yet).

Below are some pictures from the event. I wish I could display them as beautifully in my house.

Once again, thank you for all your love,

Addison's Mommy

6 months

My Dearest Addison,

It has been six months since you were born. Six months since I never heard you cry. Six months since since you never opened your eyes. Six months since our lives changed forever... But not how we expected. 

I miss you. I have distractions though. I think you would be proud of me. 

I'm going to share your story this Sunday. So far, I have about 60 people who have rsvped. It has been a while since I have told anyone your story, mostly because no one has asked to hear it. It's important to me that they know it though. .. That they know you. 

You room is still up but not finished. Maybe next week I will start working on your curtains and crib skirt...

I doubt I'll ever stop wishing to go back. Back to your life. Back to when I was your mother and that was my full time job. 

I will always love you. 

With time passing against my will,

Your Mommy

A Presentation of The Untold Story of Addison River Rusch

My oh my, am I EXHAUSTED. I have been sooooo busy lately and really enjoying it. I'm sleeping much better than I was a few weeks ago and River has been a significant help to have home. To be honest, I'm really just too tired to post about all the happy things going on... with one exception...

Nathan and I would like to invite you to join us on September 14, 2014 at 6:30 pm to share in a presentation of The Untold Story of Addison River Rusch. Many do not know all that happened between March 11th and March 14th. Telling this experience that we had with Addison will help in our healing process. Additionally, we will feel comforted knowing that you, our friends and family, are as acquainted with Addison's short life as we are. As you come to understand what Nathan and I experienced, it is our hope that we will feel more supported in carrying the burden of Addison's death. 

Thank you all for your continued love as we try to navigate through life after the loss of our beautiful child.

With Love,

Addison’s Mommy and Daddy

P.S. Snacks and desserts will be provided. Children under the age of 12 are not invited except with special permission (You and I must agree that your child is mature enough to hear Addison's Story). Please take a moment to RSVP (There is no way I can remember everyone telling me in person or assuming your attendance) by phone, text, email (granger91@gmail.com) or the Facebook event page (Click here to RSVP on FB).

 The young women from my church have generously offered to provide volunteer child care. If you are in need of this PLEASE include in your RSVP the ages of the children you will need care for so that the young women can prepare adequately. 

Below is the location address. Attire is dressy casual. Feel free to share this event with any who may be interested or benefit in coming. Also, I would be happy to answer any questions that I may not have discussed concerning the event.

The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints
1150 Cole Rd SW 
Lilburn, GA 30047 

With Love, Excitement, Enthusiasm, and Hope for your Attendance,

Addison's Mommy