I Exploded

April 5

I exploded on someone today. Even after saying how careful I am, it still happened. I guess the details aren't important but in a nutshell, I thought I was going to hobby lobby during a specific persons shift and I got the time mixed up. She wasn't there and another associate eaves dropped on my conversation. She told me that my idea wouldn't work even after I offered alternative solutions. She asked me what else she could do to "help me". My mind was spinning trying to make my plan work and she had totally frustrated me. I blurted out in a rude tone, "my daughter died". She of course was shocked and tried to apologize. I walked around the corner as I started to cry.

Thankfully I wasn't there alone. My friend kindly thinks that I didn't blow up on her at all. That's probably because I didn't say all the things I wanted to.

I guess that's a bit more than a nutshell but I find it ironic that just this morning I had been thinking of how careful I am and still today I lost it on someone for the first time. I guess I still need to work on being careful.

Here's praying I don't blow up on you.

With love,

Addison's Mommy

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Nadya Greene: It happens to the best of us. Good thing there's always tomorrow to try one more time. I hope you don't feel pressured to behave a certain way. Just take your time.

Nicole LaDeau Ward: We're human. It's good that your able to acknowledge your emotions. Don't be hard on yourself. Your heart is still healing. Praying for you!!

Debra V. Wade: Don't beat yourself up, we all heal differently. As always, we care about you both bunches.

Jeannie Childs: Art, who even says there is a right or wrong way. I bet she is more careful next time. As for today just, be gentle, kind, and forgiving of yourself.

Ginger Faulk: Don't be so hard on yourself, you've gone through a horrific experience and those times are bound to happen. It's good you had a friend along to help.

Martha Mooney Granger: it's okay, everyone gets angry!

Sarah Latchaw: I say let it out. If you keep it in it always takes longer.

Tamra West: I agree Sarah Latchaw!

Emily Rusch: Sounds like I need to get you that sign sooner rather than later...