My Baby is Not Here for Easter

April 20

It's Easter. I'm supposed to be happy. And I am on at least one rubix cube block. I feel like I am supposed to make some very grateful and joyous post but that's not how I feel. I feel like smashing plates. I feel frustrated and angry that she isn't here. Her first Easter. She isn't wearing a beautiful dress. She won't ever wear a beautiful outfit for this "happy" spring day. I think I will wear her beads today.

I want to try to feel her all around. I want to feel her spirit in the breeze and see her beauty in the flowers. I know she's there but it's so hard to look. To try to make her here when she's not. So many people will be gathered with family and friends today. They will have Easter egg hunts and eat way too much chocolate. They will be too happy, too happy for me atleast. I don't really want to make every one sad for me but I just want a part of people to remember that she's not here.

My baby is not here for Easter.

With sorrow,

Addison's Mommy

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Jessica Snider: Addison is a part of you and a part of Nathan...and as long as you are here she is here. We're still praying for y'all and hoping that this Easter...with celebrations of the resurrection and promises of future and eternal happiness that your family will find comfort...we love y'all!!!

Ashley Tremblay: I remember.

Cheryl Solomon Collins: I remember too! I am also continually praying for you all!

Tina Marie Rusch: I'm sure it brings a whole new meaning to Easter to know that because of Christ, you will be with her again.

Karen Chirinos Bradley: I bawled my first Easter, I remember leaving church early because I was heart broken seeing all the cute girls in their dresses. Our Sunday will come.

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Channy Hansen Fish: Her beauty and sweet spirit are unforgettable. She has a permanent place in my heart from the one time I met you all. I imagine that she will be even more ever-present in the hearts and minds of your family and close friends....always.

Sarah Latchaw: I thought if this yesterday. If I were there I would help you break those plates if it would help you feel better and take away some of the pain of each and every holiday you will have without your angel physically here. I'm here for you if you ever need anything even if it's breaking plates.

Stephanie Gray Albritton: I remember her every day.

Emily Beth Rusch: Jon Allen, this is the other place I mentioned the Rubik's cube

Jon Allen: Emily, You already said that this site represents the sad blocks of the cube. I was hoping to see the postings that represent the happy blocks.

Phyllis Pitts Rowberry: I posted this on Sunday, but I don't see it here now. I don't normally wear pink. I don't think it is my color. However, I wore pink in honor of Addison on Sunday. I thought it was appropriate. I saw a lot of others wearing pink. Maybe because it's their color. Maybe because it was Easter. Or maybe because they were honoring Addison, too.