People Who Aren't Sensitive

April 29

You know what sucks? A lot of things... But right now what sucks to me is that there are people who are not very sensitive at all. These people are very rare. Most people try very, very hard to be sensitive to what ever I need. They don't push me to do anything that would make me uncomfortable. Sometimes they try to find words that might be able to help me. Many times they just listen and ask open ended questions so that I can share as much or as little as I want. But occasionally I find someone who isn't as sensitive as they should be once they discover who I am or what happened to me. They are being what they think they are supposed to be. A "sales person", a "business man", a "representative". In my opinion, you should forget your title when you talk to me. Talk to me like a real person. Like someone who understands that my baby was born 7 weeks ago and died 3 days later. 7 weeks people. My world revolves around the baby I had 7 weeks ago and when you're around me, please show that you know that. We don't have to talk about it every second but just be sensitive for heaven's sake. Don't expect me to be better or get better EVER. In fact, I could even get worse. This may not be my hardest day, month, or year. Having more children actually might and to me probably will be the hardest. If you see me or talk to me and I'm happy and functioning, good for you, but you don't know if I'm faking it. You don't know how good I really am. I LOOK good but that doesn't mean I AM good. Sometimes it does. Sometimes I am trying more than you know to hold myself together.

With frustration,

Addison's Mommy

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Chelsea Yancey: I am so sorry that you're going through this Emily. I can't imagine how hard this must be. I think about you, Nathan, and Addison a lot, and I am constantly praying for all 3 of you.

Camden Fordham Inman: I'm sorry Emily. Some people are hard to deal with... Unfortunately. I hope that you don't encounter many for your sake. I'm praying for you, Nathan, and your sweet Addison. You are always in the forefront of my thoughts. I am so grateful to be your friend and to be able to read this. I can not understand what you are going through, but with you being so open I will be able to somewhat understand what others that have this lose are going through. Thank you for helping me understand! Love ya girl!

Stephanie Gray Albritton: I don't know if you will find similarities in this post or not, but I have read it several times, and your post made me think of it again. http://theprogressiveparent.org/category/grief/

Emily Beth Rusch: I love all of that Stephanie Gray Albritton. It's nearly exactly what I have been saying.