"Pray for My Wife and Baby"

April 15

Baby announcements are the worst. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad you people are having babies. And I want to know your babies were born. I was so excited to announce Addison was born. We were going to have the typical first family picture with mom looking exhausted and dad holding Addison like a football. We were going to look so happy in those pictures. Everyone was going to be overjoyed for us... Do you remember what our announcement was? Did you even see one before you saw she was critical. I'll help you out. Daddy posted, "pray for my wife and baby." That's all. That's all you got. Just pray. And I know you did. I know you all must have been so worried. Rightfully so.

I want that moment back. I want that first moment to change and the rest to follow suit.

I'm sorry but it's too hard to see everyone else get what I longed to have. So I have unfollowed your feed. All you pregos. All you new, or renewed moms. All of you over joyed fathers. Even aunts and uncles. Don't worry about what you post. I won't see it. I can't. Be happy. Let me be the one to distance myself. You and I won't know what is too much or too little so let me decide. It may change every day. Like today...

Today I found myself on an elevator with a pregnant couple. I had been sobbing just moments before. It took all my effort not to talk to them. Not to ruin their happy pregnancy with the loss of my daughter. I wanted to tell them. I wanted to warn them. But I didn't want to lose control in the elevator. They got off on the second floor as I continued to the third. They escaped. I guess I did too.

Addison's Mom

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Jennifer Culp: Love you Emily!

Marcy Howard: Love you so much!

Sarah Latchaw: I'm glad I'm not in that unfollow group but I thought about that last week and I'm so glad you shared because I was wondering about that and how it was. Love you and am glad you escaped. You are in our prayers.

Tonya Robertson: Lowry I'm glad you took that step in protecting yourself. I know it wasn't what you wanted to do but what you needed to do for now. I think of you often. HUGS!

Ginger Faulk: Thinking of you and praying for you. I know those who have been unfollowed will understand that you have to do what is best for you right now. I'm proud of you for your efforts on the elevator...I know that must have been painful. Love you!

Camden Fordham Inman: I understand! I'm sure I am one that you uncompressed and I'm glad. I've been worried about how you would react to some of my postings. Sending an incredible amount of love and prayers your way!

Camden Fordham Inman: Unfollowed not uncompressed....