Maybe Angry

April 30

I think I'm angry. I don't want anyone telling me I am. But I just feel so mad at people. I'm not mad at Addison at all. I'm not mad at God. I'm not mad at my husband. I just wonder if I'm being hyper sensitive or if people really don't use their brains. And so what if I am hyper sensitive. I should get a free pass. What's the worst is when these people say words that won't leave my head. They continue to hurt me long after the words met my ears. Why must I be an extrovert? Why do I choose to be vulnerable to these people and their words? I guess I'm still in here. In this body that doesn't look, feel, or act like mine.

There must be a purpose for women being concerned about their appearance. I try very hard to love every stretch mark and change my body went to in order to create Addison but now I am finding myself to be embarrassed and hiding the physical evidence of my motherhood. It's so wrong to feel both.

With frustration,

Addison's Mommy

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Debra V. Wade: Not at all. Hugs to you for being strong enough to speak up and to say it as you feel and see it.